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A Writer's Doubts

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The pen seems to pour out my heart
Exposing my soul for all to see
Flinging caution to the wind
With the words "Just do it" on my lips
Letting the world see my art
The 'world' being a select few
Because I'd rather cause a reaction
Than for millions of views
I want to make someone smile
To read my stories and cry
But I'm afraid someone will read 
My pulsing heart on paper
And not feel a thing. 
Walk on and forget 
What I've written 

Fear grips my being because I feel-
I'm a writer body and soul
Like nothing else can apply to me
That being a writer isn't an occupation
It's a way of living
And without the words 
Running through me 
I couldn't ever breath
I would suffocate 
Being someone I am not. 
Forced to wear mask after mask
Because it's not practical. 
And it deeply 
Scares me

My words mean nothing 
Is what I'm afraid one day
Someone will actually buck up and say
Because I've known for a while
I'm a fading voice drifting on 
The never ending wind
But at least I'm a voice
And when I see the papers
Scattered across my room
That is proof that I was here
That I felt 
That I existed
That I was a writer. 
And nothing can take that away. 
What if I get worse instead of better? 
© 2017 - 2024 SandWren
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Iklaendia's avatar
Aaaa that's beautiful :)

I can't offer any consolation (I'm a pretty bad friend lol), but I'd say write for writing's sake :P Even if we may not remember the exact words we've read, everything we read I feel leaves some kind of impression upon us. We may show you our opinions, but whether you get better or worse is based upon YOUR standards, not ours.

Alright, that's all the philosophy I can pull out of the bucket. You're doing fine, and keep up the good work!